So Much For Commitments!

I've never been that good at committing myself to the small stuff like blogging, scrap booking, or exercising. I'm trying though. I'm trying to be more consistent in all three of those areas and in life in general. I do realize there are things in my life that are not "small" like staying healthy, being a faithful wife and mother, taking care of our home and finances, and being the best attorney that I can be. Most importantly I recognize my total and complete dependence on the Lord, and despite that acknowledgment I have not been truly committed to the Word. I am not consistent in my study or meditation of the Scriptures, nor am I praying throughout the day like I use to and know to do. I do not live as though I am completely void without Him.

Before I commit myself to the small stuff I must at least make a strong effort to be more committed to my spiritual walk. I must read scripture more often and pray throughout each day. I want Christ to be my first thought each morning. I want my focus on living a God-glorifying life to be intertwined with each thought and each decision I make, and I want to fall asleep singing praises to Him who has seen me through another day! That is what I desire to desire, but I'm not there yet. I was there at one point, but I have allowed life (the small stuff) to get in the way. I have allowed the small stuff to dominate my thoughts, to take first place on my priority lists, and to stir up confusion in my head and heart.

Some of the best advice I have ever received from a friend was to starve the flesh and feed the soul. (Thank you Xandra!) Although I have not completely starved my soul-to-spiritual-death (as that is not possible since I am His), I am somewhat Spiritually famished. Therefore, I am going to leave my blog and spend some time in the Word and on my knees in prayer. I look forward to whatever the Lord my give me to chew on this week.